I'M A WARRIOR

This is a story that I have never told

I gotta get this off my chest to let it go

I need to take back the light inside you stole

You're a criminal

And you steal like you're a pro

All the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I was broken and bruised

Now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

Out of the ashes, I'm burning like a fire

You can save your apologies, you're nothing but a liar

I've got shame, I've got scars

That I will never show

I'm a survivor

In more ways than you know

Cause all the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I'm not broken or bruised

'Cause now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me

There's a part of me I can't get back

A little girl grew up too fast

All it took was once, I'll never be the same

Now I'm taking back my life today

Nothing left that you can say

Cause you are never gonna take the blame anyway

Now I'm a warrior

I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

No oh, yeah, yeah

You can never hurt me again

-Demi Lovato_Warrior-

# I'm Done # I Don't Care Anymore # Wow!

Maybe I should've known, maybe I should've known

That you would walk, you would walk out the door, hey!

Said we were done, then met someone and rubbed it in my face

Cut to the part, she broke your heart, and then she ran away

I guess you should've known, I guess you should've known

That I would talk, I would talk

But even if the stars and moon collide

I never want you back into my life

You can take your words and all your lies

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Even if the stars and moon collide

I never want you back into my life

You can take your words and all your lies

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Oh oh oh I really don't care

I can't believe I ever stayed up writing songs about you

You don't deserve to know the way I used to think about you

Oh no not anymore, oh no not anymore

You had your shot, had your shot, but you let go

Now if we meet out on the street I won't be running scared

I'll walk right up to you and put one finger in the air

And make you understand, and make you understand

You had your chance, had your chance

But even if the stars and moon collide

I never want you back into my life

You can take your words and all your lies

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Even if the stars and moon collide

I never want you back into my life

You can take your words and all your lies

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Oh oh oh I really don't care

Yeah, listen up

Hey, hey, never look back,

Dumb struck boy, ego intact

Look boy, why you so mad

Second guessin', but should've hit that

Hey Demi, you picked the wrong lover

Should've picked that one, he's cuter than the other

I just wanna laugh, cause you're tryna be a hipster

Kick him to the curb, take a Polaroid picture

Oh oh oh I really don't care

-Demi Lovato_Really Don't Care-

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!

I know I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

-Christina Perry_Jar Of Hearts-

It Hurts

I can’t, it hurts, please don’t do this
If you get to know me, I’m a small and soft girl

You’re bad, I hate you, can’t you really see me?
Look at me, I want to be in love with you

I’m smiling but why am I crying?
I’m here but where are you looking?
Look at me, calling you from behind

I love you, I love you, only you
You’re my painful love
A love that’s by my side but a love I can’t have

Only you, only you, I love you
Because of this painful love, it doesn’t stop
Tears keep coming, I love you

I know, I don’t like it, I hate myself for being like this
It’s strange, I close my eyes but I see you
When will you reach me?
Whose name are your lips calling?
Look at me, I’m calling you from behind

I love you, I love you, only you
You’re my painful love
A love that’s by my side but a love I can’t have

Only you, only you, I love you
Because of this painful love, it doesn’t stop
Tears keep coming, I love you

Please look back just once, at least once
Don’t say that I’m just a friend

I love you, I love you, why can’t you hear?
Must I say it for you to know?
I’m by your side not as a friend but as a lover

Only you, only you, I love you
Because of this painful love, it doesn’t stop
Tears keep coming, I love you

-T-Ara_ Hurts-

You Make Me A Fool

It’s all my fault
I’m sorry for being selfish
But I don’t think I did anything wrong but to like you

Fine, I’ll admit it
That person is better than me
It was so hard to come all this way

You don’t know, you don’t know my heart
You really don’t know
If you do this, you make me a fool
You don’t know, you really don’t know

You make me a fool, you make me a fool

We need to straighten things up right now
I understand everything so please be clear
I hate you but I’ll miss you, although it’ll be really hard
I want to be the guy who will be your excuse
I want to know your heart now

Lady, why can’t you look into my eyes, why’re you avoiding me?
Why do you keep uselessly saying that you’re sorry?

It hurts and it’s hard but I can’t say anything
What do to with myself?
No one knows my heart babe
I still can’t forget you, I still can’t ignore my feelings
So I’m writing a letter that I’ll never send

Close your eyes and listen to this song
Even if you don’t say it, I know now
An answer with no assurance, wishy-washy feelings
You put me up and put me down, you’re a mystery
I’m the only one in love between us, it’s meaningless
I don’t care if I become the bad guy
So you can tell me now
And listen to this song here

You don’t know, you don’t know my heart
You really don’t know
If you do this, you make me a fool
You don’t know, you really don’t know

You still don’t know my heart

-B1A4_You Make Me A Fool-

MEAN Person, BAD Man

How can it be so painful much when there are no scars?

How can it hurt so much, as if I’ve caught a nasty cold

You are so mean, you are so bad

Was my innocent love that fun to you?

All day, I curse at you and hate you, as if I forgot you

But the more I do so, the more tears flow

Sweet, sweet – even the sweet whispers of love

I didn’t know that they were all lies

I was still young so I believed everything you told me

And I regret that so much

You are so mean, you are so bad

Are tears the last part of love that you taught me?

I want to meet someone better than you

And smile every single day

Watch over the happy me from afar

You are such a mean person, you are such a bad man.

-Juniel_Bad Man-

Mengacom a.k.a Mengadu Domba

16 March 2014..... pukul 11 lebih malam...

Huuu.....lepas berlatih buah Silat Cekak dari buah pertama sampai ke-20, dapat buah khas level potong dengan tgn yg belum sembuh 100%, seriously memang mencabar malam tadi.
Penat tak ada.... tapi perit.... sakit kowt... maka berbalut semula tangan kanan aku...

Sambil duk balut tangan.... here comes perbualan biasa tetapi compact dgn pengajaran....
Pesanan drpd seorang lelaki seumuran abah-ku mengenai hukum kehidupan dan agama yang selama ini terlepas pandang....

Abg Hazri : Allah tak suka orang yang MENGACOM.

Aku dan Shaz : Mengacom? ape tu, abg Hazri?

Abg Hazri : Mengacom tak tahu?

Aku dan Shaz : *geleng* Bukan achoom tu bersin kew?

Abg Hazri : Haha... bukan tulah Mak Lang.... Mengacom tu mcm mengadu domba.... memecah belahkan kaum sesama kita. Nabi Muhammad pun tak suka, umat Islam bergaduh sesama sendiri.

Aku dah tersentak. tertanya-tanya sendiri... adakah usaha aku yang aku rasakan utk mendamaikan perbalahan antara rakan-rakan aku..... dikira SEBAGAI MENGACOM? kerana aku menjadi org tengah di antara mereka? maka, aku pun bertanyakan hal ini kepada abg Hazri.

Aku : Abg Hazri.... macam mana kalau kesnya... saya menjadi pengantara utk sahabat2 saya yang tengah bergaduh, A & B. saya menyampaikan apa yang A katakan pada si B dan apa yang B cakap pada si A. Adakah itu dikira sebagai mengacom?

Abg Hazri : Maksudnya Mak Lang menjadi org tengah?

Aku : *angguk*

Abg Hazri : Lepas Mak Lang buat macam tu, adakah diaorang makin baik atau makin teruk?

Aku : *Diam* worst.....

Abg Hazri : *senyum* see? It's not worth it, Mak Lang... Ya, tahu. Niat Mak Lang baik... tapi mak lang, kita tak ada kemampuan utk mendamaikan mereka melainkan diri mereka sendiri dan Guru. mak lang tlg mcm ni, mak lang yg tanggung dosa mereka kalau mereka tak berbaik lebih dari tiga hari.

Aku : *facepalm*! Allah!!! Saya lupa, abg Hazri. Umat Islam kalau tak bertegur lebih drpd 3 hari dikira DOSA BESAR!

Abg Hazri : Apalah itu pun boleh lupa, Mak Lang ni.....

Aku : JADI SEKARANG, APA YANG SAYA KENA BUAT? saya dah jauh dlm kes diaorang ni.

Abg Hazri : Hari ni hari keberapa diaorang gaduh?

Aku : 2 hari.... esok dh masuk tiga...

Abg Hazri : Kumpulkan mereka semua esok. Jangan tangguh. Biar mereka selesaikan sesama mereka.

Aku : Saya masih perlu ada di situ ke? mendengar mereka?

Abg Hazri : Nk jadi pengadil ni, Mak Lang.... kena AMANAH, PENDENGAR YANG BAIK DAN TAK BERAT SEBELAH. kalau Mak Lang rasa Mak Lang mampu, jadilah....

Ya Allah, sungguh aku tak nampak semua ni. benarlah kata Sir Balbir.... "THE PROBLEM OF OUR PEOPLE IS, WE ALWAYS LOOK UP TO THAT CERTAIN MATTER RATHER THAN OBSERVING THE WHOLE PICTURE."

After realising the wrong step I've done.... where showing I'm too late in handling this case even if I want to, I took up my phone.... and typed more or less like this...

"You guys need to talk.... It's gonna be hard, but we have to look at something more important. Dosa besar bila tak bertegur sapa antara umat Islam. So, 3pm at cafe?"

Sent.

No reply.... still hoping they would give me positive response...

And today is the day....
guess what? THEY ALL ARE COMING! YEAY!!!!
but the guys are late.... -_-

better late than never....
Afraid I'm not needed, I stayed in my room, infront of my lappy_baby.... writing this...
Hoping and praying the best for them.... and waiting for their news....
They are my friends.... their bad, their good.... they still are my friends...

Love them hell much....

Quotes of the day : YOU WERE GIVEN THIS LIFE BECAUSE YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH TO LIVE IT ^_^